To everyone who has supported me in my donation campaign and in life!
I want to thank you all for everything bit of support you have given me. It’s kind of hard for me to write this because I don’t know how I can show my gratitude enough so that you would understand how much It means to me to have this circle of faith around me. Each and everyone of you believed I could, I should and that I would. This resulted in you giving me support in many different ways. Wether it was financially or verbal encouragement. It all means so much to me to know there are so many different people willing to help me on this journey. You gave me this start and now I will show you what I can do.
My life will change from this point on. This year decides a lot of things for me and I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for giving me this option in life.
If I can I will send each and everyone of you another message via the whydonate page. The message function has been working on and off so I will need to see how far I get.
I don’t know what to say other than thank you for being a part of this turning point in my life.
Now with my birthday and me missing someone important in my life made me realize just how lucky I am to have the people in my life that are there now and that my mom will always be with me. I know I’m not alone.
It’s crazy how things can be so warm and welcoming the first moment and completely dark and emotional the next. This is exactly what happened to me in January 2017. My mom passed away. It’s the worst feeling in the world to lose someone you are so immensely close with. We shared a lot of good and hard times. Between the moving around and constantly having to watch our backs and her not being here to watch me graduate I’d definitely say I’d rather live a life on the run than one with her not being in it at all. Depression, loneliness, restlessness and a lack of motivation are all things I have been coping with since the loss of my mother. The light at the end of my tunnel was my little brother (22). He has unknowingly been functioning as a shield between me and joining my mother through this whole process. It’s safe to say I almost lost myself completely.
On top of that I had a choice to make. My class (dance teacher department at the Academy for Theater and Dance) would be going to ‘Ecole des Sables’ in Senegal (February 2017) that year. Would I be joining them? The loss was so heavy I didn’t actually want to go but I felt it was also an opportunity I couldn’t miss. Going to Senegal that year with my class was the best decision I have ever made in my life. My class was very supportive of me taking the time to mourn. I was in company of my class without actually physically taking part in any classes. I joined the classes I was mentally able to participate in but also knew my limits and stopping when it became too much. I have learned so much about myself and the culture around the village people and would really like to set forth the physical and mental research that I have missed out on in the four week training. It’s a part of the program that I follow at the department and I will need to re-do this part seeing as I was mentally not stable enough to partake in the classes. I need to redo this journey in order to graduate.
The next time my departement will be visiting the ‘Ecole des Sables’ is in February 2019. I would very much like to join this class to finalize my program. The last time I joined them I was able to get a sponsorship to help me with further medical needs. This time it won’t be the same seeing as the sponsors will not all be able to help me.
I have been involved in numerous projects to develop myself as a dancer, maker and teacher. I am the ambassador of the faculty council at school, I set up different productions (with help from the school) and I have recently been asked to become the manager of the agency that I am currently dancing with.
My goals in my internship year are to:
- Teach and make a production with youngsters from a correctional facility between the age of 12 and 25
- Work with children from different nationalities
- Get a good base for my African fusion classes
- Develop as a dancer
- Get connections from all over the world starting with Senegal and Belgium
The reason I need this funding is because I have been struggling with getting a good balance between school and outside jobs. The struggle is that I am traveling a lot in between Rotterdam and Amsterdam to get to school. This means I am usually home late and would only be able to work in the weekend. The money that I am trying to collect is not only for my journey to Senegal (most of it is) but it is also a way for me to do the rest of my internships without having to worry about financial problems.
I will need the money by the end of august. This gives me time to save up what I can and start half of my internships during the summer so I won't fall behind while im in Senegal. Every little bit helps!